July 3, 2011

The Camera Bag Is Full of Film - and Plastic Bags!

I suppose this title won't draw many viewers, but that's okay.  It's not my purpose, although I've been pleasantly surprised at postings that have inadvertently drawn many hits. The biggest one was photos of the solace moon a few months ago, and the Prince William/Kate Middleton wedding pictures that I posted on this blog.

By the way, at least one person has asked. What is Prince William's last name? It is Mountbatten-Windsor. More information can be found HERE.

About that camera full of film, I've been having THAT dream again. The one where I'm expected to shoot a wedding, and I can't find film to fit the camera because I FORGOT to stock up my camera bag!  I used to think it really had to do with my worries before a wedding shoot, but I'm not photographing weddings anymore, so what DOES that disturbing, reoccuring dream really mean?

Could it be my deep-seated feelings of doubt about my ability to successfully accomplish something I haven't done before? In the past, when I would have a scheduled wedding shoot coming up, I would review every little aspect of the wedding day over and over again.  I'd pack and repack my camera equipment. I WOULD have way more film (and batteries) than I'd ever need - even though when film was in vogue, I'd take up to 30-40 rolls of film during the wedding day! (Sometimes I'd cover a 16-hour wedding day.)

Well, maybe it's the fact that I've decided to return to school for my RN to BSN (Bachelor of Science in Nursing).  My first online class starts Tuesday, the day after tomorrow. (I sent out some personal family emails, and posted it on my Facebook, so some of you already know.) 

Or, maybe what FEELS really heavy is the fact that I can't find the nursing job that I want, and this not having a job to feel good about is casting some long shadows!

Whatever, I'm sure that you can relate to recrudescent, unwanted, devilish, dream that wakes you up with a bad feeling, and discourages any thoughts of going back to sleep.

Like my friend, Linda, (the Linda we bought the house from), said,
"Put it in a plastic bag."

I was telling her that sometimes I'd rather not be around people that I know are going to be critical of me. Instead of standing up to them and making my feelings known, I try to bypass the exposure if I can.

"Oh, put it in a plastic bag and let it blow way," she admonished.

Good advice!

I'm putting that dream in a plastic bag and watching it blow up, up, and away!

Take Care on the Journey,
Your friend if in life (if you aren't critical of me) LOL

Linda's E-mail: bestnurse@usa.com

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